MAZE

posted Jan 27, 2009

“After 120 years of puzzling, mathematicans have mapped out the most complex abstract structure ever conceived, a 248-dimensional representation called Lie group E8.”

Alex Stone

I wouldn’t want to live there.
All the unknown invisible spaces
so tangled up you couldn’t ever
unwind them. Today’s illusion:
blue squares, wood floor,
adagio currents of afternoon
billowing out white curtains.
I could triangulate the dullness:
rustic, soothing, wide open sky
in this houseful of clocks ticking.

I could write zen one thousand times
across your imminent departure.
Or roll my life down a hill of the future.
Late summer lightning, leaves
falling red, winter writing on glass—
consider how beautiful it would be:
simplicity picking up speed,
the one note filling the room.

I know I could walk inside that sound.
If I did, I would carry nothing with me
and if I bothered with love at all
I would lift it and turn it under light,
make sure it had emptied itself of emotion—
that what I held was wind born,
a kind of driftwood I could look at
and leave behind.

Instead I fumble for my spirograph
key, insert it into a spirograph door
that may not be yours. If on the other side
you hear me, feel your way along impossible,
through curvatures of distance
curling around us like waves.

Lori Lamothe is the author of Camera Obscura. Her poems have appeared in Alaska Quarterly Review, DIAGRAM, MiPOesias, Third Coast, and other magazines.