Piezoelectricity

Christopher Phelps

A poem came to me and swore it would do no harm. What would it do, then, I asked. It seemed surprised at the question. I am accustomed to defense, meaning the undoing of fences, it claimed.

I pressed the point that defense does not really mean the undoing of fences but the making of them, perhaps the negotiating of them. The poem then found a key defense. Alas, I am caught in my own desire—for the prefix de to be less of and more knot with a silent k. I replied: Why do you do things this way? The poem pulled me in and whispered (if a spoked wheel could whisper), I am charged with a mystery I can neither solve nor surrender. What would you do in my turn, it asked. I answered with unmelodic honesty, as much as I could find: I guess I would write it out and check my answers, the way students are asked to. Do as they are told, not as we tell ourselves? The poem riddled. I was always bad at riddles, I admitted. That’s why I’m here, the poem admitted. To improve me or my riddle-solving skills, I asked. To swallow the hook and have to learn how to live, it replied. Are you sure that’s no harm, I asked. I have already sworn as much to you. That’s my part. Yours is sensing what can be believed. Piezoelectricity: charge from touch. A quick stream of current through some fluid cloud of motion. “Do you know what I mean?” and “Do I know what you mean?”—we talked under each other simultaneously, then paused at what felt like a mild shock of meaning in its fullness or in its absence, it was difficult to say.

 

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Author Bio: 

Christopher Phelps lives in Santa Fe, New Mexico, where he tutors himself and others in math, philosophy, and related mysteries. He is queer and neurodivergent, a twainbow that underwrites his attempts at creative solvency and steadfascination. His poems have appeared in journals including Beloit Poetry JournalThe NationPoetry Magazine, and Zoeglossia. A chapbook, Tremblem, was semi-privately printed in 2018. Christopher hopes to find publishers for his full-length poetry manuscript, Salve Age, and his idiosyncratic poetry-memoir, Stuck-On-Its. Find him at www.christopher-phelps.com.

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